So yesterday we found out my mother in law has cancer. I haven't ever known anyone really close to me that has been diagnosed with this. My first response was to cry and to be afraid. Isn't that exactly what the world would have us to do? Why should we be afraid? Last time I checked God was still in the healing business. Last time I checked God was still in charge and in control. Still, to get control of the emotions, HARD. To reign in the wild thoughts going through our heads - CRAZY HARD. Once they are reigned in, to keep them reigned in - EXHAUSTING. But all of this is necessary.
God is so good. This morning the devotion on www.proverbs31.org was specifically about this. After reading this it became clear to me that while this is pretty hard to take and get a grip on, I am actually at an advantage over a non believer. Through our faith, our studying of Gods word, and our daily living as God would like us to live we have been "practicing" for handling life's big stuff. As I think about those non believers my heart aches. They are going to be totally sucked into the way the world reacts with no thought that there is another way. They are stuck in a state of despair! How awful is this. This pushed my thinking further. I have to be an example of the alternative! God has given us hope! Why not grasp onto it and act and think accordingly! This will help those they are non believers, this will help those believers that are not as far along in their faith, plus it just helps me!
I had to tell my husband that they have found cancer in his mom. We had to tell our girls their grandma has cancer. I had to be strong and demonstrate my faith. It was not my strength, it was God's strength. We are all still concerned about her, but we have hope. We are showering her in prayers and will be showering her in God's word as we write to her and talk to her on the phone. Have I mentioned, she isn't exactly a believer?
Again, I am very concerned about her. But I am putting her and this whole situation in God's hands. I know God can work MANY good things from this, and that is what I am excited about! I am going to do all that God has called me to and trained me to do for HIS glory in this. I choose to be a part of God's miracles!
I hope this is making sense. This information plus the emotions have been very overwhelming and deep. Bottom line, I know my call in this situation is to do all I have been practicing and all I have been trained to do. God has prepared me for this moment in time. My faith and thoughts are in Him.
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Lots of love to all!
D. J.
