Well it's been a while - I am still here and God is still awesome!

I have been incredibly behind at work and at home and it seems that things are just getting more hectic each day. As I dig myself out and through I have to rely on God. I have to know He is helping me catch up, He is helping me plan and organize (prioritize) my days for maximum impact, He give me HOPE in the fact that working with him this state of insaneness is only temporary. I have to rely that if I listen to His promptings, nothing will fall through the cracks. As I trust Him with a little (right now it's just with digging out at work and peace at home) I realize I can trust Him with more. For me (the mild control freak) this is actually hard. I know that I know that I know God is faithful. So why do I still hold on to so much? Why do I pray and then worry? Will I ever arrive at the place where I literally give it all to God each day and live each day based on His guidance and promptings? I don't know. But for right now, I will do what I can and progress a little at a time. I could be frustrated that I am not to my desired point with God or I could be happy with where I am and the determination I have to grow toward my ultimate desire. I believe God honors this. It's called GROWING. As long as we are growing we aren't dieing. My growth may be slow, but it is growth none the less.

Hope you are growing daily in your relationship with God!

Lots of love,

D. J.