Doing it all - not really liking my call these days

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength - Phil 4:13.

Lately I have been saying this scripture to myself because I am really feeling the weight of life. I have also been trying to hold my thoughts captive because I know this is the root of my stinking thinking and being down. In holding my thought captive I have found that when I say this powerful verse, immediately following it I thinkg, Yes, BUT "I" should not have to do it "ALL". My husband should do more, be more loving and caring ( in the non sexual way), be more respective and receptive to my feelings. My kids should be doing more, being more appreciative, and more sensitive. That's NOT holding my thoughts captive. That is where I am though. My plate is over flowing with trying to get on top of our finances, trying to declutter and clean our precious little house, trying to make progress with getting our darling 2 year old to the doctors she needs to see, trying to stay on top of just basic household chores...not to mention, my job, my classes, taxes, and all that fun stuff...oh and did I mention the battle with weight loss!

But this is my call - to be a mom - the most unappreciated occupation in the world, yet, the most important. With the wife role following a close second. I should not be focusing on the earthly approval and appreciation. I should be seeking Gods approval and Gods help.

I would love to always be perky, on top of everything - and quite honestly I believe that's the face I put on most often - but I am not. I would be a liar if I acted or said differently. God knows we will struggle with our call from time to time. He gently guides us, encourages us, and sends us reinforcements. I know sometimes I get clipping along and things are just peachy...and I begin to pat myself on the back and rely less on God...I think that's when things start going down hill. I messed up, I better clean it up...then God will be back with me. Wrong thinking again - When I mess up - if I go pick up the broom and dust pan, I better be taking it to the throne of God and asking if He will help me clean it up rather than trying to clean it myself.

Oh, I could go on and on. Bottom line is - My call is a struggle - but it's still my call, God has a plan and I must humble myself, seek His way and stick to my call. I will be greatly rewarded - God promises!